They showed
me the photos and said that I have not got Endometriosis.
They said
that they did find some little white bits which they have cut out and sent off
for testing. The consultant said that I will get the results in a few weeks. He
had also said that he will no longer need to see me.
My condition
since the operation has been up and down.
I am still
taking Tramadol everyday, most days it is at least 4 Tramadol.
I am still
using my crutches.
I am still
relying on Stuart to do stuff for me.
I do hope 1
day soon this situation I am in will be solved and I can be back to the way I
was but I can not see it happening any time soon.
I am still
recovering from the operation though.
I am still
on the sick from work.
I have also
decided that if nothing has changed in the next few weeks then I am going to
write my consultant a letter and get him to see me with Stuart there at the
same time, or ask him who i need to see next.
I do also
want to say my feelings lately have been all over the place. I have not let
Stuart know because I don't want to upset him, or get him worried. But I have
been feeling lonely and depressed about everything I am going through. There
have been a couple of times where I have cried my self to sleep.
I broke down
into tears earlier because I realised how bad my situation is and how much my
condition has changed my life.
It still
upsets me that I can not do stuff around the house or look after our son. John
is now make at Nurserty and Stuart has to take him and pick him up while I am
at home resting in bed. I would love it if I could take John and pick him up. I
Would love it if I could go out and do stuff.
The only
thing that keeps me going is hope. Hope that one day I will be back to way I
was a year ago.
As soon as I
know more on whats going on I will let you know.
Thank you
hi universal
credits
my update regarding emmas operation 1of2
i thought it
was time to update you regarding our situation and emmas health.
it has been
2 weeks since emmas operation, and she was warned that the recovery time would
be 4 to 6 weeks. after getting home she has pretty much lived in her bedroom
just like she did before to be honest.
she was told
by the surgeon that he didnt actually see much in the way of endo (i presume
the sticky stuff sticking to all the organs), but did find two 1mm white spots
sent off for analysis. emma did say though she spent 90minutes in the theatre
allthough the average is 45minutes. i will send a copy of this to the surgeon,
and later will email them asking for a detailed description of what was done
and what was found so i can get a better understanding of what was done and
what we can do next.
so, this
morning when i was nagging my gorgeous girlfriend to write something down for
you guys, after 10minutes of near shouting she began crying and after i took
john to nursery, we sat and had a little chat, and thats why you are getting
this little update. this one is from my perspective.
i can tell
emma is anxious because she wants to be well again and back at work, and i cant
wait for that either because im getting ratty with her and john especially, and
emmas fed up with being in bed all the time and in pain, but honestly we are
and will cope and get through this, i will make sure of that. (ps thank you for
all your help. we would be homeless without it so thank you.)
anyway,
waffling aside. for just under two weeks since emmas operation she has
definatelly shown a little improvement in certain ways. she still gets me up in
the night to empty her pee jug, make her a fresh hot water bottle and a cup of
coffee, while she takes another tradamol, so most nights she still relies on
them to get some sleep, BUT, one night couple of nights ago she never woke me,
but still woke up to take a tradamol, and last night she never woke up in pain
and so never woke me up either. now im not getting my hopes up but i just want
you all to know exactly what we are going through.
and about a
couple of days after the op, she has on avergae been relying on 3to4 tradamol a
day (including mightime)as apposed to 5or6, something i have noticed. ALSO
IMPORTANTLY, she leaves me with the impression that the main place of pain on
her right side in the abdominal area is not there as much as it used to be. the
main area of pain for her at the moment and since the op is around and below
the bellybutton area, which as far as i am hoping is the pain from the op which
hopefully will go in time.
my update regarding emmas operation 2of2
as i am
typing, i am talking to emma, and remembered about 3-4 days ago she was getting
the usual very sensative to touch the skin around the lower bellybutton area
and all the way round the sides. just gently touching her skin results in a
stabbing pain where she touches. sadly that is something she has been suffering
with for a while now, and doesnt look like its gone away.
emma has
also occasionaly been walking without a crutch, but still careful steps and no
lifting or anything too physical. once or twice she has changed john, but on a
changing table, and only if i lift him up and put him down.
what worries
me, and i have said this to emma allready, she now reminds me of where and when
she was about 2 or 3 months ago, and what really worries me, is that
statistically, a majority of women having this procedure, end up developing the
same symptoms again, untill such time they have a hysterectimy. now this is
just my feeling here and my opinion based on other womens experiences and what
i have deduced for myself. i am not saying i am correct, but atleast now you
know how i feel, and what is worrying me at the moment.
i was just
about to write how i thought emma was a bit better since the op, and decided to
ask her opinion here as i type, and her response was a prolonged ''yeaahh, but
i dont think its gonna last'', and ironically, thats what i was conveying to
emma this morning after we had our little tiff.
honestly, i
think she is definatelly a little bit better, but i would be a liar if i said i
think she is out of the woods so to speak. another reason why im writing this
is after reading emmas written info for you on universal credits she said about
maybe being back at work in 5weeks after the op because the nurse said so, i
reminded her the last time she heard that and believed it, she was still in
severe pain and agony.
also, while
i am typing this, and refering to emmas note being sent to you at the same
time, i didnt understand why the surgeon told emma he wouldnt have to see her
again, as there should atleast be a post op review, and i will be taking this
up with the surgeon in due course. if she needs to see someone else, i will be
asking hime who we need to see next. as well as asking for a full report
regarding what he did for my emma. it has to be pointed out i was not allowed
to be by emmas side due to corona virus and i should atleast be given some
guidance as to what took place. i will be asking for something in writing from
the surgeon in due course.
sorry if i
am typing as i talk but i atleast am trying to inform you of where we are.
honestly, it
has only been 2 weeks since the op, and so too soon to jump to any conclusions,
but nevertheless, atleast we have tried to keep you informed, and will get back
to you, once i have emailed the surgeon, and received a response regarding my
queries and concerns.
i will keep
you updated when things change and thank you.
